Complications.

Sometimes I become extremely overwhelmed with the stress in my life. I've recently been affected by the events that other people are going through around me. I suppose it's hard to examine and figure out why it affects me, the only real hypothesis I can come up with is because I care too much.

Seeing a close friend struggle with adult ADHD has taken a numerous toll on my life as well as other's lives. It's hard to think that while I'm trying to become something better for myself, he struggles every day to gather his thoughts together.

Another situation that I recently encountered is being caught in the middle of two relationships. They are all my best friends, and lately it's been me giving advice to both sides. It's hard to consider that I may have an affect on what could happen in the future of any relationship with the amount of involvement I have with all my friends. I often find myself caught in between too many things, I find it very hard to restrain from helping the people that I love the most. This may be a good thing but it has it's double standard.

Yet, the question I've recently come up with is this: how do people's stages of life alter their thoughts? It's a real question that nobody really ever addresses. We all go through phases of life; the hardest part of these stages is being able to realize what stage a significant or potential "other" may be in before you start to get serious with them. Where people are in their life determines many things: what kind of relationship they should be in, what their spiritual values need to be, even something as practical as making monetary decisions such as buying a car or a new house. It's interesting to think that not only do stages affect every aspect of our lives, but they really set the tone for the type of people we surround ourselves with and how they will impact our lives.

Sometimes I wonder if we are all destined at some point in our life to do certain things. I'm convinced that God has a significant plan for all of us; whether its a plan to raise a family and have a great home, to have a decent career and a family, or maybe just to have that one thing in life that keeps you alive: helping others through your career. And how is a woman supposed to have both a career and a family? It seems like settling for one or the other these days is a possibility. But who really wants to do that?

Either way, so many options tend to completely complicate my thoughts.