Complications.

Sometimes I become extremely overwhelmed with the stress in my life. I've recently been affected by the events that other people are going through around me. I suppose it's hard to examine and figure out why it affects me, the only real hypothesis I can come up with is because I care too much.

Seeing a close friend struggle with adult ADHD has taken a numerous toll on my life as well as other's lives. It's hard to think that while I'm trying to become something better for myself, he struggles every day to gather his thoughts together.

Another situation that I recently encountered is being caught in the middle of two relationships. They are all my best friends, and lately it's been me giving advice to both sides. It's hard to consider that I may have an affect on what could happen in the future of any relationship with the amount of involvement I have with all my friends. I often find myself caught in between too many things, I find it very hard to restrain from helping the people that I love the most. This may be a good thing but it has it's double standard.

Yet, the question I've recently come up with is this: how do people's stages of life alter their thoughts? It's a real question that nobody really ever addresses. We all go through phases of life; the hardest part of these stages is being able to realize what stage a significant or potential "other" may be in before you start to get serious with them. Where people are in their life determines many things: what kind of relationship they should be in, what their spiritual values need to be, even something as practical as making monetary decisions such as buying a car or a new house. It's interesting to think that not only do stages affect every aspect of our lives, but they really set the tone for the type of people we surround ourselves with and how they will impact our lives.

Sometimes I wonder if we are all destined at some point in our life to do certain things. I'm convinced that God has a significant plan for all of us; whether its a plan to raise a family and have a great home, to have a decent career and a family, or maybe just to have that one thing in life that keeps you alive: helping others through your career. And how is a woman supposed to have both a career and a family? It seems like settling for one or the other these days is a possibility. But who really wants to do that?

Either way, so many options tend to completely complicate my thoughts.

let's start living.

I can sincerely ask myself why I stay up so late. I suppose it's because my habits are bad. I could change them, but I'd rather not. Much more is done in the evening than in the morning. At least in my opinion. I decided to start this blog to record all of the interesting phenomenons I come across in my daily life.

Choosing to read this could be boring for anyone, but I'd like to think I have an intriguing lifestyle. I don't regard myself for an eccentric individual, but rather a complicated soul.

Oddly enough, I often escape incidents of danger, but nevertheless find myself in strange places. I happen to be quite a passive-agressive individual and never know when the party ends. However, I never make it to the beginning of a party either ;)

I found it quite interesting that I was not at a recent university football game; I had every intention of going yet escaped an ill-fated wound that occurred in the crowd. He must really look out for me. My lazy butt decided to stay in bed and keep to myself rather than associate with drunken stumblers at the tailgate. What a blessing.

Besides the recent events occurring around our quaint little city (rolling my eyes)....I recently came across an idea that was astounding of sorts. Slight sarcasm here. I determined it was time to do a bucket list.

I once read that the Greeks only asked one thing at the burial of their dead: "Did the man have passion?" I suppose if this blog is intended for anything other than my raves and rants it's hopefully to discover the passion that I and others have invested into the fulfillment of their own lives.

Back to my bucket-list. I've started with a few. And some I've already checked off. First checked off include singing in a rock band; cute, I know, but interesting story nonetheless. Second: participate in a pageant and model. Done. Thank you, Ms. Laura. Most arrogant woman I've ever met. Yes arrogant, she looked and spoke like a man. So leaving the things I haven't done: I really want to go back to high school for a day! It'd be interesting just to crash a day of high school to see what has and hasn't changed in the world of teenage life. This is to be experimented further....